Right, continuing from the previous mental rant…
Going through it I realized just how carried away I got! I mean cmon! It had no head, no tail and no ass either. Right…
So where was i? yes..on the starting note I talked about how incoherent my thoughts are, and reading that entry, I am convinced more of it. There was material, but no design.
Something which many people think its how the world is. Wrong.
There is material, and like hell there is a design!
But who is the designer?? I wish I knew myself… on this subject I just don’t know what to say. A million and one possibilities but… okay maybe not a million and one… but maybe who knows? Maybe there are a million and one, but see our imagination is limited…possibilities, possibilities…gak!

And yeah, more possibilities, but is there ONE answer?
I don’t know…
Hmmm…
Well… aside from the designer, we have the design. Our minds are so limited that we cant even understand this design. We are so unsound that nothing we see connects or clicks, but infact I think everything is interconnected and everything is sound. We just destroyed the equilibrium while looking for the equilibrium. Which is a sad fact! All this bullshit about economic equilibrium really disgusts me. Equilibrium to a lifeless mechanism? Its something that we have created and something that is destroying at an unbelievable rate…
And all these talks about stopping global warming…uh..its a gradual process. I hate to break it to you but its inevitable, its just that we are speeding up the whole thing. So stopping global warming is not going to help, but trying to reduce the damage we inflict on earth meanwhile…that’s what we should be aiming at.
Frankly, I don’t mind horse carriages! I love horses in fact, and if we have to revert to old style carts and all that, HELL YEAH ILL LOVE IT!
I have this weird fascination with everything that is old. I don’t know why. But heres a fact I have to face. Things were no better in the medieval times, especially not with the stinky armpits all around. Yeah…what would the world be without deo? But still…there is this weird fascination and I suppose it has something to do with the fact that at least people treated each other somewhat better…or did they? Errr..with the whole slave thing going on I’m not too sure about that but there is something very appealing in that rustic setting…its all fantasy of course. I mean look at the plagues that spread killing millions. All because of TERRIBLE hygiene conditions. Plus the people back then didn’t shower. An interesting fact my friend put in was the point of the bouquet of flowers the bride used to hold. The groom apparently used to stink so bad that the bride held flowers to ward off that offensive vile smell…ehhh…how the hell did they even think of rolling in the hay (if you know what I mean… ) with them? Oh I bet you the brides were no better. Hehe…
But maybe it’s the fact that there was NATURE almost everywhere. I mean they were not confined to concrete were they? Or maybe its just the war and the battles and chivalry. But I can just imagine how bad even Achilles and King Arthur must have smelt. Phew! And not just them, imagine…hordes and hoards of people drenching in their own sweat. Enough to kill the enemy I suppose. Or they must be immune to it. Don’t forget the smell of the dead and the rotten bodies…
Which brings me to yet another something… death… we all talk of death, write about death, and death seems to have become an obsessive thought or trend of some kind…why I remember those days when I used to write stories filled with a certain edge of gore and blah blah…now? Now that I know the gravity im scared as hell…:S I don’t even want to talk about it but it’s a thought that haunts me. I’m not ready…but is anybody?? Hmmm…lets change the subject…

Ummm…well not lets end the subject…my eyes are hurting and this is a cue for a headache. One of those crippling pain in the arses. You know…the surging pain, the feeling as if someone is hammering you on the head with a club. (esp the back of the head). Not nice! And well..i have several books to read so I think ill go and chill with a book or something…:S